Hello people.
Sorry for not blogging for such a long time.
Been very busy with the love of my life,Hockey.
Had to do ball picking at delta for the game challenge.
From 17th - 21th October.It was fun and tiring.

But It was worth it. As I get to watch international level games.
And meet hot and gorgeous players.
And I became the hardcore fan of the Hong Kong captain.
Barbara Helen Mountain.Jersey 8. In short B.Mountain.
The last day before she left.I stand a chance to take a picture with her.
And get her autograph on my pass. Coolios.

The Mens Final game was interesting.
Cause both Australia and India have the potential to conquer the cup.
But It was proven that Australia was better.
As they won 2-1. It was last minute goal. More to last second.
And I wouldnt forget the times in delta for the past five days.
Spend more time with the team and all.

Recently nothing interesting happen.
Everything is fine for me. Hanging on well enough to survive.
Tigger is currently locked in the closest.
I dont want to see it. It makes me go wild.
And plus touching it is consider raping to me.

And plus yesterday wasnt a shocking thing.
I had known it. But I still want to be stubborn.
And listen to my heart.Not my dad.
As if you can do it once, anytime you can do it again.
So all my efforts are just wasted. But it wasnt a big deal.
Cause apparently I dont bother thinking about it.
Why must I anyway. It was the past. And indeed it has been.

If we just look upon the past, we can never move on.
Im moving off.Already did. A long time ago preparing for this.
And leading a new life. I supposed Im happy this way.
Its a happier one. In fact.

Looking at the past will only bring back the sadness and everything.
I dont look at the past. I look forward.
If you cant appreciate me, Somebody else can.
And will appreciate me fully.I was just wasting my time.
Thought you change was the biggest mistake.
Well Its just your words at the tip of your lips.

You apologise for the date. When Hari raya came.
But I dont think you truly mean it.Oh well,you are you.
Im just accepting every decision you make.
Cause If you regret, I cant do anything about it.
And I told you you cant turn back.

Once you start a track and leave a mark.
You cant undo the mark even how much you try.
Once Twice is enough. Im never going to accept shits any longer.
Time heals everything.At least thats what i hope.

And Having a sister like you.
Too Stubborn and cant see that we doing it for your own good.
Is heartbreaking.I tried to tell you so many times.
Stop bearing grudges against our parents.
No matter what blood is thicker than water.

But you insisted on choosing the guy who has no blood relation with you.
Instead of choosing us.Which has been there for you since you are born.
If you dont want to listen to me.Its okay.But Please pity our grandparents.
They are just waiting and hoping that you will change somehow.
But you choose him. He cant even promise you a promising life.

He doesnt even have the qualifications for job in today's world.
You have seen what happen to our mother. Causing us not directly related.
You still didnt want to take that as an example.
Instead you listen to your heart too much.
No matter what happen my mother is your mother.

Eventhough you cant accept my father since young.
But he has been the one who care alot about you since you were four.
When your irresponsible dad left. Your dad did nothing for you.
It was my dad. Our dad now who did.But you dont want to treat him like one.

My dad once told me.Dont ever wish that your sister will come back.
Fat hope he said. But Im not giving up on you that easily.
Eventhough you are never like any other person's sisters.
Who always there for her siblings meaning ali and me.

I still love you. As you are my sister.And I cant accept anything
Like you are not my sis cause we came from different dads.
Thats rubbish okay.Im just telling you all this is for your own good.
As I dont want history to repeat itself.It was already once with our mother.
And you dont have to add on to the history of our family.

I just dont want you to regret and bear the hardships like our mother did.
Think it over.He might be with you for 11 years.
But building a home is much more difficult and require a lot more effort from both.
In order to stay happy.Its totally different from just a normal relationship.
Cause once it happens responsibility will be much heavier.
Please think it over. I dont want you to crash and burn.

Our mother is lucky to meet our father. But you wont be that lucky.
Cause A person like him only comes once in a while.
I telling you all this is for your own benefit.
Im your sister. I did this cause I care for your well being.
And Im not young anymore as to not understand about this.
But you just told me to mind my own business.

We are a family.We go through everything together.
Gosh, Unless you dont treat us as one anymore.
I dont want to take your leave from our house as a sign of you.
Killing all the relationship we all have with you.
Im just worried for you.Whatever it is.Im with you in all the obstacles you facing.
Im always there.Its just that all this while you treat me like a kid.
Well Im a not a kid no more.I can give you a listening ear.

Just dial my number.Ill listen to you brag rant.Absolutely anything.
I know our age gap is big.10 years is big.But that all that doesnt matter.
The matter thing is that you know now that there is someone here.
Who willing to go through things with you.Even if our parents give up on you.
You know my attitude I dont give up that easily.Stubborn and all.
Think it over alright.

Sometimes I wish I can forget everything.Pretend nothing happen.
Im willing to.But will others willing to heed it too.I waited for years.
But neither of you wanna give in.Whatever happens we are still a family.
Whether you want it or not.Sometimes giving in solves everything.

Thats all for today.I just need to express everything.
Everytime talking about this brings tears to me.
Now the important things to me is Hockey,Studies and Top of all my family now.

Memories kills those who loves.