Started the day with lazyness.
The first thing I attacked was food.
I need to grow so must eat alot.
Big appetite this days.

My hawt elder brother is back.
But not for long only three days.
He's only at home till saturday.
So going out today.To get his stuff.

To you:
I dont get whats wrong here.
I wasted my bloody tears yesterday night for nothing
You dont appreciate me.I dont even know what do you want.
You want magic.I cant give it to you.
Cause Im not a magician. I dont do tricks okay.
If you cant take it anymore.Why dont you just end it here.
End it with a full stop.And I wont do anything to stop it.
Cause it always been your say.

To whom it concerns:
I dont know why.But I just envy you okay.
But its okay.you always get the love that you want.
And you just like to make me jealous.
I dont know what's your big issue with me here.
I shouted at you yesterday.
Cause who do you think you are to control me.
You are younger than me asshole.
And dont try to act as if you are my elder brother here.
And plus elder brother is back.
Ill only listen to those who are elderly than me.
Not you selfish brat.you have mom's love.
What more you want.You want dad's love too.
You can take it.As long as you dont bother me anymore.
You just love the attention dont you.

Getting everyone by your side.And everyone against me.
And when I get into my room not bothering you.
You had to purposely just get your ass on my bed.
You only be nice to me when you need me.
And if I go against your will.You will be there complaining.
And I have to entertain the scoldings all night.
You love to see the pain in others dont you.
One fine day,when you get to feel it.
I swear you would never come to me and apologise.
Just because our age gap isnt that big.
You think you dont have to respect me.
Im still older than you and im still your sister.
But do you call me like a sister.
No you treat me like a friend.
You called me by name.

Cause mom say its okay you can call me by my name.
Doesnt mean you dont have to respect me.
You know what,I hate you.But I cant hate you.(See the irony now.)
Cause people say blood is thicker than water.
And I dont wish to create an enemy in my own family.
Its just that I wish you to leave me alone.
And dont create troubles for me.
Cause eventhough you are in the wrong.
Ill always get the blame since im the oldest now.Older sis not with us.
Older bro only comes home 2 days once a week.
Or even twice a week.