Today was filled with boredom.
The start of the day.Felt insecure about stuff.
But soon got over it.I wasted the whole day doing nothing.
Actually I did something.But got tired after that.
I felt like a pig.Cause I ate alot today.

And I did weights today.It wasnt that tough.
I need to build up my muscle to have more armpower.
I did it once in the morning.Once in the afternoon.
And the final time during the evening before dinner.

To whom it concerns:
I never thought that things will go this bad.
To the extent of hating.I cant be bother about you any longer.
Ever since you left me.I had no right to control you.
I have no right to console you.

But look at what you have done.
I dont hate you.Its not me who hate you.
Its your own friends.People that are used to be always around you.
When you cry you weep and when you have fun.

But I guess all that changes in a flash.
I dont mind if you dont care about me.I totally dont.
But its them I worry about.They are much closer to you compared to me.
I wasnt anybody to you.I just know you for only 5 months.

And I can see the change it you.
Ever since you been with your partner.
You changed.You forgot about your own friends.
And knowing about this Im not happy okay.
I never thought you would forget those people who were there for you.

Be it rain or shine.
I hope you realised that Im talking about you.
Cause I dont want you to lose your friends.
And lose all of them cause of your partner.
And your divided attention.You were self centered.
You prioritizes your partner more than your own best friends.
I cant believe you.I just wish you can see the change in you.

To adikku su:
I understand how you feel.
I truly do.You need a listening ear.
Im always right here for you.
You just have to accept the changes okay.
I know its awarkward for you.
Try to talk things out okay.

Sometimes I wish I could undone the things that I did.
Like typing on microsoft word.But In reality.I cant.
I wish I can look at the memories and hold on to it and never let go.
But this wishes can never come true.