Everyone has issues.
Be it you like or not.
Well currently I dont like it.
Cause they are not directly my issue.
But it became my issue.
Cause why...
Cause we are a family.

Father trying to kidnap most of the family away for vacation.
Not like its not a nice thing.
But its on that particular date.
The date where its supposed to be my sister's big day.
14th of June.But we are leaving on the 13th

Well we might not like it.
But the least we could do is be supportive.
Hell,no for my parents.
They just couldnt face her thats all.
Not because they are in guilt.
Its because they are still angry at her.

Still bearing grudge against her.
Well its her fault that she didnt be this didnt do that.
And they are angry cause she never regard them as her parents.
What am i supposed to do?
When she ran away to grandparents,i wasnt even born yet.
When she was in love with the guy,i was not even mature yet.
Still a kiddo.Wearing diapers and trying to learn how to talk.
I was three.

And 10 years being older than me.
You's blaming on me for taking away our parents attention.
You got the 10 years to have their love.
But you throw it all away.
Cause you want everyone else attention.
Cause you are the freaking first granddaughter.

And when i was born,my dad gave me his attention.
Like 24 hours everyday,you got jealous.
And angry at them,dont talk to them since then.
Now you are getting engage and they dont want to be there.
You blaming it at me.

I didnt do anything to you.
You are just one pathetic person who blame everyone else.
But not yourself cause of your pride.
Screw your pride,they are your parents.
Like it or not you have to get their blessing.

And one day,you are going to regret.
And say that they were right.
I'll pray that that wont happen.
Cause its too late by then.
Damage has been done.

As a daughter the least you could do when you wanna get engage is
Step into the house where we always have an empty room for you.
Which it was supposed to be mine now.
But i didnt want it cause I thought you would come back.
Step into the house,talk to my parents about it.
Invite them for the ceremony.
At least it would be a nice thing.

Rather than letting our grandparents to do the dirty work for you.
And i was grateful i was away and not witness those horrible things.
Now,my parents had made up my mind to not go at all.
And let everyone talks about why isnt the ceremony held at our home.
And you will be the one facing the shame.
But you wont care cause you wont get the pain.

People will say my parents dont care about their own daughter.
They are being heartless and irresponsible parents.
And i wont let that happen.
Cause they dont deserve it.
I wanted to talk to you about this.
But no,you told me to stay out of this.
Cause you think Im still a kid.

The reason why you think im a kid.
Cause you dont care about me.
All you care about is your pathetic life.
Being selfish,you are only talking to me when you feel like it.
On other days,you dont even know what is going on in my life.
Its like I never exist.
But everyday I know everything about your life bit by bit.

But grandparents dont want that to happen.
And cause of you and your pride
Everyone else is trying to coax my parents out of their stubbornness
Aunties,Uncles, Grandparents.
All doing things you should have done.
Why dont you just do it yourself.
Like I said its all cause of your pride.

And Im getting really tired of listening.
Listening to all the craps I have to listen when my mum speaks.
All she talk since that day grandparents came was you.
Saying this,saying that. Repeat it again again.
Never they got tired of it.
Talking about what should you have done.
And kept asking me whether she was right as a mum.
And you know what, i havent even have a daughter.
And she's asking me about mum question.

If I dont listen,who will listen to her.
No one will listen to her.
Im her only daughter left.
And trying very hard to lift up their expectation
And trying not to drop anymore pinch of salt on their wound.
She wrote all those letters for you.
She havent wrote them but she typed them on her phone.
All those letters that she intend to give it you on 14th june,your big day.
But she cant seem to write it on paper.
And told me to write it. But I just dont want to.

When those letters reach upon your hand,
We will be in selangor visiting the fireflies there.
And I bet you wont even look at it.
You will just tear it apart cause you dont care.
You simply dont care.

I wasted so many tears on you.
Someone who really dont know that she's hurting her own blood.
Someone who dont know she giving so much pain in many people.
I never blame on the guy who made you blind.
I blame it on you cause you have choices.
But you still stick the same choice which you know we dont like it.

Im done wasting my breath and tears for you.

Thats all for today.

All I want was for you to care.